Introvert

Hello everybody!

Today I wanna write about Introvert.  What's introvert? Well, my name would be in the definition. A person who is not only shy, but has anxiety over a crowd, whether it's small or big. Whether it's around people they know or even worse, strangers.

My daughter had an award ceremony recognizing her A and B's honor roll.. So proud of her.  As I walk into the gymnasium 15 minutes early from the ceremony, there is only 3 people sitting down. Thank goodness and they didn't look my way.  I chose a seat further in the back, not only to get a better view of my daughter, but to be in the background.

As I'm waiting for the ceremony to start, more and more people keeps coming in.  I have a hard time looking up and my chest starts feeling tighter and tighter.  I keep telling myself this is for my daughter, this is for my daughter.  When I meekly look around, I see people I know, but I can't get the courage to speak to them.  I had a small break in my anxiety when the principal walks up and talks to a small group of us.  I know I'm part of it because she looks at me while she speaks of the weather.  Feeling the crushing weight ease off of my chest, I'm able to answer her questions. Then she walks off to talk to a few other people and that weight slowly returns and gets a little hard to breath and I'm near tears.

Then the students start walking in and a gush of relief settles in.  I'm watching for my daughter to walk in and when she does, my anxiety totally disappears.  She is my world and that's all who is on my mind, about how proud I am of her.

Once the ceremony ends, I give her big hugs and tell her how proud I am of her and then as I walk out of the room with my head down, I practically run for my vehicle.  At least that's what it feels like, since I really don't run..

I really hope people don't think I'm stuck up or rude.  I'm really not, I just don't do well in crowds.  That's who I am, and sometimes wish I was more of a people person.  The only place I could really look up in crowds is at work.. Now the store meetings at work is a different story, I have anxiety then.  Weird, huh?

So, if you see someone that has a hard time looking up or a person you know that is in a crowd ignoring you, it's not because they are ignoring you, it's probably because they are withdrawn in themselves trying to breath.  It's ok to go up to them and say Hi. It just might relieve them.

Have a great day everybody! Have something to say? Please do so and feel free to comment. :)

Procrastination....

Goodmorning everybody!!

Today I want to write about Procrastination.  I'm sure everybody, yes everybody has dealt with this word..  This is one thing I need to crack, to break, to get out of my system.

It's part of why my lifestyle is soo hard to change.  Yesterday I mentioned about checking out the website for heart friendly recipes.  I've only looked once and still need to.. See, I'm thinking about it, and I'm thinking, thinking, then squirrel!! Hart of Dixie... such a good show..

Anyways, back to Procrastination.  There is alot of things I need to do like fold ALOT of laundry, do last nights dishes, look at recipes, and most of all exercise.   Exercise? Just sitting here writing this, I'm thinking I could just get up and jog in one place for 40 minutes.. Right? WRONG!  UGH..

I definitely think alot. But action comes after if at all.  The greatest thing about being a parent, it's hard to procrastinate. When my children comes home, my procrastination goes away and I immediately take action as a mom.  Absolutely love being a mom.

I need to take the mom genes and use it when kids aren't here.  I'm on vacation this week and I just have so many opportunities to practice on that.  Day 4 of vacation, still putting things off.  But just maybe when I end this post, I just might get going, of course after this episode of Hart of Dixie.

Please let me know what you think about this post, is it too long? too short? boring?

Hope everybody has a great day!

What to Blog??

Here I am sitting here figuring out what I want to blog about.  This is my very first post.. So much pressure! Do I want to write about turning my lifestyle around? or maybe vent about work? Or maybe my addiction on Star Wars and Star Trek. Yep, I said it. I L O V E both movies!! I'm totally not ashamed of it.

Hmmm, well, I could start with my lifestyle.  What I mean about that, is my health. High on cholesterol and starting to really gain weight.  I love food And absolutely hate exercising. Not a good combination, huh? 😳

I just had my physical exam the other day and yep! High cholesterol.  The doctor said these dreaded words... Exercise.....  Diet.....  😥

So now the wheels are turning in my head. What to do. I have an Xbox, maybe I should get a good game that would involve exercise.  Like the kinect Zumba, or something like that.  That just might be fun. I hope. I'll just have to get it and I'll let you know how that goes.

Now the diet part. Ugh, how can a person diet when they love food?? I've looked at the hearts association site and my eyes are literally crossed with all the info. Didn't see anything I liked right away, so I left. I'll have to go back and check it out again. Give it a shot. I'm pretty sure there are lots of yummy food for cholesterol. I just have to try.  Any of ya'll have any ideas??

If you have any fun ideas on exercise and great food, do please let me know!

Thanks for reading this and hope everyone has a great day!!